Zindagi - kaisi paheli

 Aaj sach me lag rha h ye zindagi ek paheli h.

Ye kabhi hasaati h, kabhi rulati h, kabhi uthati h to kabhi girati v h. Kabhi aapko sabko de jati h, to kabhi sab chhin leti h, kabhi aap isse bahut khush hote ho, to kabhi bahut dukhi. Shyd isi ka name zindagi h. 

Kabhi kabhi lagta h bachpan me hamesha first aana, Or ek number se chook jane par rona bekar ho gya, aaj zindagi ke imtehaan me to mai last hi hu, kya fayda meri itnee padhai ka, kya fayda meri degriyon ka, jab ye mujhe ek khushi hi nhi de skti, Aaj apni padhai par dukh ho rha h, bahut time waste kia maine ispe, and I'm still doing it, kyu padh rhi hu mai? Aakhir kya karugi or padh ke, karna mujhe kch h nhi, bs befaltu me maa pe paise barbad kar rhi hu, kash kash meri jagah maa ko mauka mil jata pdne ka, she deserves all this what I'm deserving right now, her parents didn't even trust her, and she is doing on me, that I'll do something in my life or mujhe dekh lo, Mai padhti hi nhi, kyuki ab mera man nhi karta, na koi form bharne ka, na koi preparation krne ka, na jane wo kon log hote h, jo 29 tak v padh lete hai, mujhe to itna padh ke v sab bekar lgta h. 

Syd Isiliye kyuki mujhe iska matlab aj tk samjh nhi aaya, maine iska use hi nhi kia, mai ghar me khana banati hu, jhadu lagati hu, bartan saaf krti hu, pochha lagati hu, U can call me a made, even made is better than me, at least she can earn, mai to is layak v nhi hu, itna padh jab mujhe yhi krna tha, to mai kyu padh rhi hu aakhir, 

Mujhe kyu padha rhi h wo, na jane mujhme ainsa kya dikhta h unko, jo mujhe nhi dikhta, mai hu nikammi, nakara, bekar, useless, dhor, duniya ki sabse buri beti na award mujhe milna chahiye, kyuki mai hu us layak shyd sari khubiya h, mujhme. 

Pata h sab cheejo ki chhoot h mujhe, kch v kar skti hu, kch nhi krti mai, job pr 1 mahine se jyada tikti nhi hu, kyuki sunti mai apni maa ke alawa kisi ki v nhi, ek reason or h mera man nhi manta us ek job ko chhodkar kuch or krne ko, karugi to wahi, wrna kch nhi krugi, chahiye to wahi, wrna jo kch v aayega, sab thukra dungi, mai v ziddi hu, agar wo ziddi h to, mujhe only wahi job chahiye wrna kch mat dena. 

Bas door chali jana chahti hu is jail se, kyuki ab ghar mujhe achha nhi lgta, din bhar akele, sab to apne kam par chale jate h, rah jati hu mai, jo kch hota h maa- papa mere upar chhod dete h. Kaskar mere papa, shruti to h wo dekh legi, ghar pe hi to rhti kr legi wo, yrr ye kya bat hui, bas isi karan Or ghar se jana h. 

Duniya me to koi to hoga jo mujh par vishwas karega, koi to hoga jo mujhe pyar karega, haina..... 

Ye sawal mai yhi chhod ja rhi hu.... 

Man kare to jawab dena, kya aap v ainsa feel krte ho???? 

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